My prayer for you

I haven’t written in over two weeks because I haven’t really had anything to say except for complaining. Which does no one any sort of good.

I struggle in the winter. SAD is in full effect in this house.

Parenting is hard. Right when you think things might be turning a corner, BAM! You’re smacked in the face at how little control you have over the behavior and hearts of your children.

Loving myself, which I resolved to do such a short time ago, has been brushed aside because I’m tired and angry and tired and complaining. “Ugh, just stop complaining already” I keep saying to myself.

And then total crap happens to those you love.

Tonight I found out two very sad pieces of news from friends. Heartbreaking news that just hurts and makes you only be able to say “I’m sorry. That really sucks. And it isn’t fair.” News that initially makes me totally question whether or not I really trust God. Normally I fall right into this trap.

Friends, this is a TRAP.

On our way home tonight from our community group at church, and even more the moment I walked inside my house, I felt an overwhelming need to tell you that. That falling into this question of whether or not to trust God is a TRAP.

All of this crap around us? NONE OF IT IS FROM GOD.

I won’t pretend to know why God lets it happen, or to agree with it even. But I do know with all my heart that God does not want you to hurt. And while I don’t understand why someone might be given more than one horribly crappy situation (and I get totally angered by it, honestly) I feel so strongly that it isn’t from God.

And I will say too, that I don’t often get feelings like this. Like this overwhelming feeling that God is speaking to me. Actually, I can’t remember the last time I felt so strongly like this – that God was telling me that none of this was from him. And on top of it, that when crappity crap crap happens to really amazing people, people who are doing really amazing things in our community in God’s name, that something, someone, is targeting them.

Which is why I wanted to share it with you tonight. I don’t have all the answers, but I know two things for sure: That Satan is alive and working in this world and that God does not want you to hurt.

Don’t listen to the lies you’re told. They are not of God.

I keep thinking of the benediction from the pastor at our last church used to close with. And I want to close with it also.

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This is my prayer for you.

 

4 thoughts on “My prayer for you

  1. Cherie Lowe

    First, yes and sigh. This benediction is a favorite of mine, spoken over us at our wedding, repeated at one baby shower, and more than a handful of times when my husband spoke. It’s also how I closed the last chapter of my book. May the Lord make His face shine upon you. I have tried so many times as if in a fog to understand what it means in its totality.

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  2. nora

    God may not protect our bodies. He may not stay the hand of the experience that brings us suffering, but as our faith is tested and found to be be purer than gold that wastes in the fire, we are reminded of the true grace of God.

    1st Peter starts with this sentiment “We rejoice even though now for a little while if necessary, if God determines it’s necessary, you have been distressed by various trials” and closes with a promise “and after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.”

    may his grace and peace be multiplied to you and your friends tonight.

    Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ!
    According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you, who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
    In _this_ you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith – more precious than gold that perishes through it is tested by fire – may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.
    1 Peter 1.3-7

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